Sometimes, usually when I’m depressed, I go through periods when I don’t want to talk to anyone. I’ve been having one of those. So hello to my online friends, I’m not dead or anything. Actually, yesterday was fantastic — I woke up with a ton of energy, and set about cleaning my bedroom and bathroom. Did two loads of laundry, swept and mopped the tile areas of the house, even washed a dozen skeins of handspun yarn. And went for two walks. And started knitting the pillows for the living room futon.
Today I woke up a little slower but still did a 5 mile walk, then babysat, then ran errands, then got a bunch of online crap done. So I’m doing pretty well on the productivity front today, too. Still have to go to the grocery…
I did my July budgeting. Ugh. Spent too much this month (purple Docs, I’m looking at you, you beautiful things). Something I’ve figured out in my budget spreadsheet (which probably everybody else knows, but I haven’t had credit cards in ages) is to calculate the amount of interest I’ll owe if I don’t make a decent credit card payment, and wow does that work as motivation to keep my balance low. Because losing $50 to interest payments will piss me off. So I’m not doing that, and July will be tight.
I am, however, spending the $70 to get my current bicycle tuned up. The woman at the bike shop said they might be able to fix my setup so that riding is more comfortable for me, because, after thinking about it some more, a new bike is definitely not a need, and I’d be better off spending that money (basically the same amount) on a college class, because learning things is more fun than riding bicycles. If I still want a new bike by Christmas, I’ll consider getting one then. In the meanwhile, I’ll see if I even enjoy riding once my current bike is set up/tuned up. Because, while walking is awesome, and I’m still doing a lot of it, Florida is fucking hot in the summer and it would be nice to feel a little breeze on my face during my daily workouts.
Speaking of walking, I mapped a new route this afternoon. Took a drive down the opposite way I normally go, and it’s quite beautiful. And shady. Yay trees! It’s 3.5 miles round-trip, which means it’ll be good for days I want to do a short walk. (My long route is just under 5 miles.) And I have to take my camera one day, because it’s beautiful down that way.
I’ve been able to read again lately. I’m almost finished with a book on the history of the American highway system. It’s fascinating, although I’m sure it sounds dull to most of you. Next up is a book on how Dante’s Inferno permanently changed Western society’s mental picture of Hell.
While I’m on the subject of media: As previously reported, Mom and I were binge-watching The Blacklist through Netflix. We quit on Friday, because the stupid burned so much that it’s not even worth watching for James Spader. It just… it was never that good to begin with, except for him, and it just kept getting increasingly dumber throughout the season. We finished it (season one), but fuck that show, seriously. Last night we started Luther. So much better. (Mom has a thing for crime dramas. She reads crime novels, too.)
And now, for something completely different: I started seeing the new therapist last week, and I like her bunches. Hopefully she can help me get over my PTSD shit.
I’ll leave you with a picture of Loki showing his belly. Because he’s cute.