What do I want?

I have a problem.  I find the universe way, way too interesting.  Which means I get very scattered with my desires to learn and do things.  I’ve never been the sort of person who could commit to one field or one avocation at a time.  But the list of things I want to learn is getting too out of hand.  I need to choose just one or two things and focus on them for a bit.

List of things I’ve been trying to learn:

  • More cello (i.e., resume my lessons)
  • Drawing
  • Catch up on new web development technologies (I was a webdev back in the late 90s)
  • Spanish and Arabic

Do I want to go to grad school for library science, or try for a PhD in statistics?  Or should I just get a part-time job and wait to go back to school?  I need to make more time for my tapestry weaving, and for reading things other than fanfic.  And I want to take calculus, chemistry and physics classes at the community college, just because I never got the chance in high school.  But I need to leave time for cycling and hiking, and I want to travel, and and and…

You see why I get so scattered.  I get to spend some time thinking about what I really want, what my true Will is.  And it doesn’t help that the mental illness shows up to the party and renders me useless on a regular basis.  Argh.

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