I’ve been doing terribly on the two pieces of music I was supposed to learn for this week’s lesson (which is this afternoon). I keep getting caught up in whether or not my bow hold is perfect and staring at my left hand and it’s been going horribly.
I just finished another practice session. I gathered my courage and faked confidence like I knew what I was doing, but slowed the pieces down, and it sounded better. My teacher keeps telling me I play too timidly. So I’m trying to fake it till I make it. Seems to be helping. Pressing the bow a bit harder and faster certainly makes me sound better. And spending the whole piece worrying about my bow hold being perfect makes me sound even worse, so I just put my hand in the right position and pretended I was good. And it was much better. Also pretending that I was in front of an audience seems to help. In my head I was on stage at the concert hall where I saw the concert last week and just went for it.
I hope I can do as well at lesson today. Wish me luck.