Saphris, my anti-psychotic, makes me sleepy. So I was taking it at night. Last week I was having positive symptoms (aka hallucinations and delusions, although not super intense ones, and I was aware of what was going on) so Thursday I asked my doctor if I could split the dose, 5mg twice a day instead of 10mg at night. She said sure, so I did. But it made me sleepy in the mornings, so Sunday I skipped the morning dose with the intention of taking 10mg at night.
In retrospect, this was a really dumb idea.
I was freaking out, getting obsessive about my planner and pens in unhealthy ways (as I’m prone to do when I have symptoms), and having hallucinations. So this morning I’m back to twice a day, with the addition of a Ritalin in the mornings to keep me from falling asleep. I hate that I have to use a secondary medication to stop the side effects of a primary medication.
Mental illness sucks.