Good news, all! For months I was dealing with vomiting (well, dry heaving) every time my blood sugar got low. With the reduction of my Geodon, it’s stopped. I’m only getting nauseous if I start chain-smoking, which I’m trying not to do.
Quitting smoking was working great until the hallucinations started. My psychiatrist told me it was a dumb idea to quit while in the middle of a medication change. (I’m paraphrasing. She’s much more polite than that.) So I’m smoking until the switch to Abilify is complete.
I’m down to one Geodon a day, at night. The first few days after the dose reduction on Friday were awful. Like, I couldn’t drive after 2pm (my normal afternoon dose time, which was when I started feeling awful), and I felt suicidal one afternoon. (Note: I knew I was feeling that way and told my sweetheart I shouldn’t be alone, rather than going home and hurting myself. I’m quite proud of myself for that.) But every day it’s been better, and yesterday I barely had any withdrawal symptoms. So next week I’m going to tell my doctor I’m ready to get rid of the last dose and get off the med completely. It’ll be another few days of hell, I’m sure, but it’s worth it.
I’m in the process of selling off about two-thirds of my fountain pen collection. I just don’t use them. I’m keeping several, but selling 19 of them. Like, I love the idea of Pilot Vanishing Points, which are retractable at the click of a button. But in practice they dry out way too quickly. I own three. I’m keeping one that was a gift, but selling the other two. And I used to collect all the colors of Lamy Al-Stars, and some I’d never even inked. I’m keeping a couple of favorites, but most of them have been posted for sale.
If I sell all the pens I’ll have a few hundred dollars to put towards my bills. Yay!
Because of my brain weirdness, I’m not done with my commissioned art yet. I’m hoping to wrap it up today. I’ve been working on it a little, here and there, but my concentration was shot for a few days.
I had an idea for a tapestry. Sweetheart has these earrings that are teardrop-shaped and have a design laced into them with thread. I want to try doing an itty bitty tapestry on a weird metal shape like that. Just for the experience. I can’t see myself wanting to work on something that tiny very often, but it would be a fun experiment.
Knitting-wise, I’m almost finished with the second of a pair of dish towels for my sweetheart’s mother. After that I’m going to whip up a couple more washcloths for my sweetie, then get to work on a sweater for myself. I bought enough yarn to make myself a sweater a couple of years ago, and never got comfortable with the idea of knitting a whole cardigan in sport weight yarn for myself. That’s a lot of knitting, and I never found a pattern I liked. I realized something a couple of nights ago: I can knit it in the round and just steek it. (Steeking, for those of you who don’t knit, is cutting a pullover sweater up the front to make it a cardigan. Yes, it’s scary. Yes, I’ve done it before, but only once.) I own a sewing machine now. I can sew two parallel rows of overlock stitching and then just cut between them. Last time I steeked a sweater, I did it by hand and it was terrible. I mean, it came out well, but the process was terrible.
Okay, done for the moment. Later, y’all!